Ignored state of mine

This is just a confrssion from a guy who felt something true for a girl who probably will never feel the same for this guy
its a one sided thing because its just love without expectations
simply because he knows whats it at the other end but can that really stop u from feeling
whats there in your heart
what if its ignored, its still LOVE
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I am waiting for the dawn though it still looks like night
but its lovely under the moonlight
eyes look wet, but they call it dirt
its choking, and not pumping; my heart
no i don't need to mention the reason
words look seized in the emotional prison
Because life again took that intimate turn
like for my breathe, all night i yearn
for someone who wants HIM and not ME
HE goes unlocked what if i had the key
way back it goes, the tale, when i met you
i too had emotions, ignored them, cudn't hurt you
i felt it every moment, though you didn't, no need
only GOOD TO SHOW UP is not a girlfriend indeed
i never ever ought to hurt you, with emotions of mine
asked is it fr love?? i said for breathings i am trying
Everytime i wept, it was the fear of losing you..
You would engrave the feel, thought that while cruising u
but you said quit that right here, for its rubbish, of no use
left blank, left numb, how can love be a feeling to accuse
Alright because people do think if i were so nice, then it was all a plot
but that's not because i want you damn it, simply love you hell a lot
but even till this day, there are no complains no demand
Because someday you'll realize selfless love, thats when it goes grand
did i had a deal, if you will say no i'll cry out hard <oh shitt ohh no!!>
Who told "you need to be my girl for me to love you <no no no!!!>
You know what, i need to tell you now, if they say i WANT U to love me too
then all it implies is you are just a NEED and never that their LOVE for you is true
Because love since i knew is about being selflessly committed..
its a feeling all pious, with wants, demands omitted..
i don't know what feel is mine, but ya its not fake for sure..
can talk to you, befriended already, all great, cant ask for more..
cant be the reason for it all the time, still the wish is to see yoy smiling..
smiling for true and smiling with reasons, not that fake with tears all hiding..