Ignored state of mine

This is just a confrssion from a guy who felt something true for a girl who probably will never feel the same for this guy
its a one sided thing because its just love without expectations
simply because he knows whats it at the other end but can that really stop u from feeling
whats there in your heart
what if its ignored, its still LOVE
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I am waiting for the dawn though it still looks like night
but its lovely under the moonlight
eyes look wet, but they call it dirt
its choking, and not pumping; my heart
no i don't need to mention the reason
words look seized in the emotional prison
Because life again took that intimate turn
like for my breathe, all night i yearn
for someone who wants HIM and not ME
HE goes unlocked what if i had the key
way back it goes, the tale, when i met you
i too had emotions, ignored them, cudn't hurt you
i felt it every moment, though you didn't, no need
only GOOD TO SHOW UP is not a girlfriend indeed
i never ever ought to hurt you, with emotions of mine
asked is it fr love?? i said for breathings i am trying
Everytime i wept, it was the fear of losing you..
You would engrave the feel, thought that while cruising u
but you said quit that right here, for its rubbish, of no use
left blank, left numb, how can love be a feeling to accuse
Alright because people do think if i were so nice, then it was all a plot
but that's not because i want you damn it, simply love you hell a lot
but even till this day, there are no complains no demand
Because someday you'll realize selfless love, thats when it goes grand
did i had a deal, if you will say no i'll cry out hard <oh shitt ohh no!!>
Who told "you need to be my girl for me to love you <no no no!!!>
You know what, i need to tell you now, if they say i WANT U to love me too
then all it implies is you are just a NEED and never that their LOVE for you is true
Because love since i knew is about being selflessly committed..
its a feeling all pious, with wants, demands omitted..
i don't know what feel is mine, but ya its not fake for sure..
can talk to you, befriended already, all great, cant ask for more..
cant be the reason for it all the time, still the wish is to see yoy smiling..
smiling for true and smiling with reasons, not that fake with tears all hiding..

FATE...!!

You ever love somebody somuch, you barely breath without

And inside its more like hell, you hate this lonely hangout
with your friends around you and they; creeping you, teasing you
where is your guy...lolzz..but inside its itching you
it kills me because i am second to all that work you got to do
but it wont hurt much, amidst if you text "i miss u too"
i wish you calll me some odd night
ask if i am hurtd with the last fight
i never knew it were so typical when i was choosing you
that it vl be so scary; the thought of loosing you
dont want those biggy gems, i want you by my side
hate being mixed in the crowd, hold my hand, take me for a ride
just cant sleep all night, wishing you a million smiles
trying things onn, messsing it offf, failing in all those trials
its not because you dont love me that much
but because i felt it special..your damn hugg and touch
And now i am helplessly falling for this lonelinesss
need you not for a night chat, but to fill-in my emptinesss
You have been my only good thing i always tell
but somehow why then we make it so hell
i wish its not too late before we feeel it
ending isnt gud if we know we can deal it
Because then it might not be that easy; for me to hold my tears
for loosing that only thing which mattered-the-most all these years
just want you love me the way i do
the way i look in for you, you should be too
dont want you alter it.. or you change for me
out of your busy goings; a walk if you can arrange for me
i wish, if you could know..what it takes to say I WANT U
its u mah luv that i cant resist, and not that i haunt you
i wish someday you'll feel my luv; i wish you hold back
to fill in those gaps, the spaces which lack
but do come back before i peel it off
my arms or fingers you'll find cutting short
now its getting suffocatd, i am dieng you know
do i really need breathings, welll i dont know
bt i want that to be you, who resusitates me
but you freak out, you say "it iritates me"
please be here, wana hold you, ask you whyyyy??
what is it that you bother too less, why you feeeling so shy??
babiee please come back, dont go away
i"ll learn to love my lonelinesss i swaear
And he goes out; nt even looking backk, hitting the door back hard
doesn't bother i was sobbbing, and waiting, or eyes swelled because i cried
an end to everything; an end to "wait"
my love fell short...may be that was "FATE"